I've never done this before..

& I hoenstly don't know how to. I've never had to try at something like this before and I agree with my bestfriend, I'm so afraid that I am going to try and it's gonna end like crap. Anyways, work is extremely slow but I got my braces off and all the guys are excited for me! Gene said that I went a bracket on the hot scale. He said I went from being cute to being a hot babe. Haha, yes he's old, and yes, it's gross. But still, I'll take whatever compliments I can get at this point. :3 I'm going home tonight after work and I'm going to relax and hope that tomorrow goes like it's supposed to. (: I get to meet with my incredible grandma for lunch at applebee's (: She makes me smile beyond what she knows. I love her so much. My family is such a blessing. I could never name every blessing I have in this world but I can tell you right now the ones that are being thrown in my face everyday these days are my family, my bestfriends, my job, and My Jesus. < 3 Okay, well I need to get off here and at least act like I'm doing something productive. Haha, even though the guys know that I never do anything productive. I don't know why they love me so much. haha GOODNIGHT!

Kait :3

These days are something new.

I've never been so inspired to write in my entire life. Words are flowing out of me onto the paper like crazy. Emotions in writing, in black ink, in raw honesty. It's like I was hit with something enormous on my head and woke up with a entirely new outlook on the way life works and how to live it. My date last night went extremely EXTREMELY well, < 3 I'm afraid to say I'm falling. I'm afraid that those feelings aren't in complete return, but I always say "breathe deep & love strong". I cannot wait to get my tattoo of that. So, I've been incredibly wrapped up in the question of what my friends and family would have to say about me if I died tomorrow...obviously, there's inspiration behind that question, I'm not just saying that because I'm emo or something. I just truly wonder, because I know, say, and hear the amazing things that Molly left behind. OH, total 180 here buuut, this 63 year old guy came into the dealership today and wrote a check for a 62,000 dollar vehicle for his 23 year old girlfriend with GIGANTUIN ta-ta's. I was astounded. (: Only an hour and ten minutes left until I'm off work and head down to my father's house in duncan to stay the night. I'm extremely glad rachel's coming with me. You know it's one thing to know in your heart how incredibly blessed you are by the Lord, but it is a totally other thing to actually experience it. :3 just saying!

"If you'd just realize, what I just realized then we'd be perfect for each other and we'd never find another. Just realize what I just realized and we'd never have to wonder if we missed out on each other now. But it's not the same, no it's never the same if you don't feel it too. If you'd meet me halfway, you could meet me halfway. It could be the same for you."


Signed,
a indifferent Kait...

A big ol' dent in my senior summer.

Well, when it rains it pours. That's all there is to it. Life is incredible at the moment and is completely screwed up at the moment. I have a blessed life, more than I realize everyday. Today, this morning actually, I went to the funeral of my amazing very close friend Molly Ann, of 17 years old. She's forever 17 in her hometown and is gone...and although I'm broken and searching for strength and answers, I know that for her, I'm going to live this year right, and this life..I'm going to live it right.

On a happy note, I have a date tonight with an adorable man, and I'm hoping that it goes even more smoothly than I have it all planned out in my head. (YEAH RIGHT) But I'm excited, and I'm ready. I know that my best friends are more than I've ever deserved, ever. I have amazing teachers that took time out of their schedules to comfort me and hug me this morning when I was at one of the lowest points I've ever been. I have a lot on my mind, but nothing that my Jesus isn't giving me a peace about.

I've gotta watch my dr. phil before I go to work, so I'm shutting up for now. You can guarantee though, that tomorrow I will put every detail of my date on here. Just for safe keeping of the memory (:


new life begins...NOW.

Kait

Oh, to be free.

I am newly single. I know my title of this entry sounds "tre harsh", but honestly, I'm excited to just be me for awhile. I'm young and I'm extrememly stoked to figure out who I am and have a single summer to do and be whomever I want. Justin meant everything to me, and he was my world for a year and a half, and I don't regret a day of it. I just know there's better out there for me obviously since he ended it. Tonight, I go eat with the most incredible best guy friend I could ever ask for, ever. Guys are bombarding me left and right and idk how to tell if they like me for me or just want to f*** me. I'm learning though. I went to trinity, and I'm relieved to say that I felt very comfortable going back and plan on going back more and more often. I love it so much more there than I ever remembered. I'm glad I'm not letting little petty worries and feelings get in the way of me learning more and being a part of a congregation that wants more than anything else on the Earth to SERVE Christ Jesus and Love him and learn about him more and more in depth every single day. It's going to be a wonderful summer (:


I'm gonna start blogging everyday while at work, hopefully. We all know how that goes though.

signed,
an at peace Kait

SUMMER 2011!! :3

< 3 All I know is it's summer, that's all i really NEED to know. My job is incredible, I'm a senior, I turn eighteen in 3 months and two weeks, i get my braces off in not even a full three weeks. Granted, there's a situation that is driving me insane that i cannot figure out, but that will come with time i'm sure. I'm so sure that this summer is going to be one of the best i've ever had or will ever have. School ended well, and thank God it ended. I honestly am so proud that i survived my junior year, next year is cake compared to what I had to do this year. My stress is out the window, i'm riding with the music loud and my boston hat on as much as possible. I have the most amazing best friends and boyfriend in the entire world. What more could I possibly ask for?! I don't know but I don't plan on ever letting go of this feeling. EPIC SENIOR CLASS!


signed,
a very excited Kait

Life rolls On.

Facts I know without a doubt:
My boyfriends = greater than you.
I'm just me, and I can't change that.
I love my school, and I cannot wait to be a senior.
I don't fit perfectly anywhere.
The previous statement is perfectly okay with me.
Music speaks louder to me than any word spoken.

I'm done living my life for anyone else, I've said it a billion times before and I pray this time it's accurate.

I've never learned so much

I've never learned so much about myself and my heart's desires and hopes as I have this last year. It's a new year though, and as I go through I know I'll learn only more. Totally lame? Yes, probably, but I made a list in my journal of the big things I've learned about myself and my heart. I will list them at the end of this blog if you care to read them for yourself. Last week, a sort of blizzard hit my great state of residence and I enjoyed it immensely. Being out of school, and being carefree made all the difference in getting things straight in my head. There's these lyrics that spoke straight to my heart over the time period of being stranded at home. "Everything is fine, fine, fine. Through the sunshine and the rain. I've got a peace of mind, You know I can't complain. I make it a point to thank the Lord, when I've got him on the line. I'm feeling good and everything is fine." (: Josh turner's flamin' hot, but that's not the reason I love these lyrics. I don't know, I just feel this way and I know my life is absolutely as perfect as anything I could ever realisticly ask for. I'm really excited also to announce that I'm going to start my first actually book very soon. It's going to be titled "The Silent War" unless I come up with something better while writing it. Okay, I guess I'm done rambling now and will go practice for auditions for TCGT this saturday and for districts next saturday. :3 Love.
Signed,
"At-peace" Kait



My List:

1)I was kicked in the face with once again that I can do nothing of my own strength but only that which comes from my Jesus.

2)Let it all go, and just be a teenager. Screw everything else. Stick to my guns and have fun.

3)Frienship isn't about constantly being together or talking 24/7 but is actually about loving that person above yourself and letting stand in the way of that friendship.

4)Real, and Healthy love is a fragile and rare thing these days, and when you have it you hold on to it and fight for it with everything you have.

5)Confidence. Period.

6)Call me lame, but I'm a country girl and I'm proud of it. And although winter is still my favorite, I have a new found love for the summer.

7)Nobody "lives without regret" or can honestly say "I don't regret anything." BullS. Go look up the definition of regret and then tell me if you don't regret something in your life.

8)Say what you need to say, before time passes and it's too late.

9)My choir teacher finds me shocking and innappropriate and quite frankly many other people probably do to, I just don't really care anymore.

10)Some people AREN'T worth your energy, live like they don't even exist. It's much easier that way.

11) Jesus is faithful. Through every high and low and mistake and regret, he's faithful.

12) my family is life. without them, I die.